Feels like everyone lives life perfectly, but then its just me, missing you. Crying every night like this. Hoping that you'll come back. Why my mum? What did i do? You should be here with me, right now, planning my 18th but instead, im here alone, thinkin about dresses, wondering if your proud of me. I love you sooo much Mummy. :'( Im soo sorry,,and i love you and wish you could be here again. To come back and not leave me this time.